black world

i don't know how to decribe my feeling rite now!!!! Damp :-( I can't participate in Australia Scholarshio as i desired:-( I've spent many days to prepare that scholarship but in the end this is imppossible for me to participate in. how stupid i am!!! that didn't know the exactly of the requirement. That's ok cos it's my worse experience.!!!! Sou Sou Sou~

Long way to go

I'm starting to ask myself who am I? Why am I here? Is it me who wish those stuff?ments about myself that of you?awesome, pretty, cool? Hum!!! Not really sometimes :O what should I do in stead of those things :1 I don't know what I gonna do with my complicated life. Even now I already found my dream, I still can't find way to reach it. Hm!! Tell you the truth I've never had success even one time that's why sometimes I wanna give it up and don't wanna stand up to see the same result. But I think there are many people who are like me, when they have fail many times then they gave it up only for weak people except strong people can stand up to continue their dream. So I decide to walk forward for my dream come true.

Everyday, every night, every time, every minute, every breathing, I?lways walking through the clue of life. I just don?anna waste time to play all the games which make me can?tand up for the real life. I now explore my genuine word. I?onna do it do it do it do it :D Before I?never thought I would be a pretty, cool, or awesome, I just wanted to be a simple girl who didn?are about others and also LOVE. I was the one who didn?anna be attractive girl and I realized that I was out of modern world. I?ow not really smart, pretty but I can find my way to feel free to do whatever I want and don?eally stress with uselessness stuff. I have a little bit self-esteem, and now more and more confident and independent. I?onna be myself as soon as I realize what the meaning of my life is. None could change my dream and change my mind even my special. Oh!! My dream might not a real love like other prefer. What my dream is to help people who might be needing aid and bring peace to the world or even my country. Actually, I exceedingly hate war. Do you know how many people cry like a river because of damp war?

Future, I ?till a simple girl to a simple woman. I just hope I could make my dream to be real and I would declare that don?ver give up for your dream come true. And I just hope I could find someone who is suitable person to be my 100years friend.

My 1st time to be here

don't know what to write down here yet!!! later:D